them ordinary people.

you're rubbing me the wrong way. i wanna get down to business not listen to people talk and talk and talk and nothing gets done. i'd rather get things done than sit around with people talking about how to get things done and don't. don't waste my time. bye.

its a bittersweet symphony, this life.

there some things in life you can choose. the people you work with is not one of them.

i dont know what it is but some people like to bring people down even if there is no benefit to anyone at all. i mean sure you get a little hahaha good one but thats it. do you get promoted from it? do you get paid more? you try that too much one day you'll get beaten up. i'm all for fun and jokes, i don't mind being made fun of but if its totally tasteless then seriously, you wonder what that was for and i go huh? funny meh? but they're laughing their ass off and everyone else is like hurhurhur okay whatever. the worse thing is they try again as if nobody heard it the first time. its painful i really feel sorry for people like that.

i have a little teeny weeny problem with the police force. actually with ns. that is how people try to scare you and threaten you with promotion. my team ic (whom i have great respect for) gave me feedback on how lazy i've been when doing sentry, which was 100% true. but he says that might affect promotion. honestly, i don't really care about promotion. cos you just get $70 more. seventy. if you one month eat mother cook 7 more meals than usual, thats 70 bucks. why should i care? i earn much more outside. everyday steal $2 from illegal buskers you can get close to 70. the point is, why make such a big deal out of promotion? its nothing. it doesn't scare me. so what you sc/cpl earn peanuts from government? would you rather have a little weight on your shoulders or a lot of weight in your wallet?

oh i hate ORDing personnel who constantly make fun of poor people like me just enlist one. its not cos i'm jealous he gonna ord. but if you think about it, i should be making fun of him cos he's going out there to get raped by the corporate world. plus he serves 2 yearsish, and me too. like i always say, every man has to go through ns. like it or not. nobody is different. it is not a punishment for being born singaporean. just do it and have some pride while you're at it.

plus
if you ord earlier than me means you enlist before me, correct?
if you enlist before me means you study less than me prolly only got o or n level cert, right?
if you only got n level o level cert, you ord alr do what? study right?
so by the time i ord we'll be in the same level right?
so you laugh what laugh?

i am enjoying my ns life btw.



on another note, sarahh's departure has hit me quite hard i'll be honest. i swear at the airport after she disappear into the depature hall i suddenly got dirt in my eye. really! i was obviously damn sad la but fear not, i will not plunge into depression anytime soon.

i learned to treasure and appreciate everyone around me especially the ones close to my heart. i guess she has been a source of inspiration even after she left. i dun really know how to explain it but i'll try. you know how when you're a kid and you grow up to an adult, the people who see you everyday can't tell how much you've changed as much as someone who was only there when you were a kid and when you're grown up and nowhere in between. yeah i guess i want to make a major change in myself and it'll be uber cool to have someone comeback from a long absence and say "WHOA SINCE WHEN YOU BECOME SO AWESOME?" especially from someone who has been one of my biggest critics in my life haha. yeah you know what i mean.

plus i am very happy for her cos she get to go englishland university. somewhere i feel i'll never make it to. not that i'll need it ;)



everyone is pursuing their dreams. i've started pursuing mine. and number one on my checklist is A SEKRET HAHA. dun tell you. but i've written it down so when it eventually comes to pass i can show all of you it is because i worked hard for it and it was in my heart from the beginning.

there really is no dream too big.

weird

im still getting used to baseguard life. yeah im taking quite a while to adjust. i find people here really weird. but thing is they are the same weird. which makes me the weird one. haha.

they dont eat their veggies. i do.
they love freezing cold temperatures. I dont
they eat meat but not organs. I do
theyre good at PES. im not
theyre not very good at talking to aunties. I am.

Among other things

but does that mean i gotta conform?

hell, no.

I like being weird.

Haha.

In other news, my com is down. So I'm blogging with my phone. Remember I said iPhone can do everything? Haven't been disproved yet. Hahaha.

I need my com so bad. Its a chore to surf the net without a mouse.

And ya I wanna download movies to watch.

Which reminds me. I feel guilty for turning 小鬼 into a pirate.

lets procreate

ok so here's the story - tuesday, dinner. soul garden. this girl sat in front of me (ish). she reminded me of someone really special and dear to me. look the same, height the same, same voice, same laughter, same dress sense. only different name, age and place of residence (which she gave verbally so it may not be true but whatever i believe her). i spent 3 hours face to face with her. eating. in that amount of time, memories flooded in. yeah it sucked.

but it made me think. about relationships, dating, marriage. etc.

i've been in discussions about the topic before. never really been interested in knowing what people had to say. maybe i should start. haha.

i had the idea that the 'ideal' partner would have to be

christian
shorter than me
younger than me
well educated
good family background
able to cook/clean/take care of kids

but this girl that i was reminded of, here's the thing. she was none of the above. not even one. and yet, i can say i've never felt more loved by any other girl in my life. the story is not important. you wanna know, ask me.

the point is - you can have all the criterion you want and still your heart can get attracted by an 'outsider'. its funny but its true. so there's really no point in discussing anything. for me, anyways. you can sit down all day talking about ingredients of a good relationship and end up in the future with the person who had totally different views from you in the very same discussion. so for me, i'll pick any girl and when it is time, we'll get married.

now marriage. i'm a very traditional person. i believe God meant marriage to be between a man and a woman so they can procreate. yes, make babies.

but some will say "but we can procreate without getting married wud."

are you a cat? a dog? maybe you super fit, you're a rabbit. no you're not. you're a human being. one human female to one human male. thats how its meant to be. and marriage is to symbolize that this particular couple are for each other and each other only. think of it as birth control.

"but we have condoms"

condoms are meant to prevent STDs. maybe i'm the only one who thinks like this but take it this way - STDs exist as a warning to those who want to have multiple sex partners. its not the bad guy. but man had so much desire for sex that we had to invent condoms. so now the STDs' man function is to spoil man's fun. now thats just stupid. we've managed to turn a helpful thing into a party pooper.

"but.. but.. b..b."

but your head. a real man knows how to control himself. that means his actions, emotions and hormones. so save it.

livin' the life. payin' the price

for a little guy, i'm spending way too much money on food. its now only five days after payday and these are my major indulgences so far (not counting the cheap meals)-

13 aug dinner - zi char $10
14 aug brunch - steak $15
15 aug dinner - ramly burger, seafood pasta, fries $10+
16 aug lunch - sushi $30+

tonight still got buffet at soul garden. friday ice cream buffet. i'm gonna go broke and grow fat at this rate.

then i'll have the tummy of a real policeman.